My bro ambik like usual jam 5.45. We stucked in traffic jam. -,- hari-hari begini so like normal biasa sudah.Then suddenly ada call.It was from my mum.So my bro angkat.Then he said "astagfirullahalazim..Okay..okay..Baa nanti pegi sana'" then i was like O.O what was happening? Then my bro said my dad kena tahan di hospital.Dia kna sambung air sbb dia x makan since morning.He was sicked actually.Chicken pox.And dont want to eat.And balik rumah prepare untuk diri and everything,i escape from tuisyen that time.I remember i saw him smiling at me.Kami tggu dia untill 10 pm and tiba-tiba the doctor said my dad kna tahan di hospital kna quarantine sbb chicken pox.I still remember i brought him pisang sbb dia yang mau makan.Then kami balik...My bro temankan dia malam tu..
14 May 2013.
I visited him just like usual.Dia selalu cakap..Jgn dekat-dekat.Kena chicken pox nanti..Pakai mask.Waktu tu i visit him sebelum pegi skolah..That day nda byk sgt..
15 May 2013.
I remember i only visited him at night before went to tuisyen.He laughing,smiling like usual but his condition getting more worse..Dia sesak nafas..His body menggigil..And after tuisyen pegi balik lawat dia..
16 May 2013.
My sis in law ambil dari sekolah and pegi hospital..And that time dia kna sambung oxygen..He still like usual,smiling,laughing,dia sembahyang pun baring sja.Kami gurau-gurau waktu tu and everyone was there except my bro and my sis.Dia nda kna suru byk ckp tapi dia ckp juga.He said "bapa suka kamu ramai-ramai begini.Gembira juga bapa ada kamu semua".He asked my mom to cook ayam masak kicap petang tu and he ate sgt sikit.My mum temankan dia malam tu.Then waktu mau balik salam dia macam biasa,but totally he held my hand and said "belajar baik-baik aa.buat exam baik-baik" . Dia lambai me and my bro mcm totally different..
17 May 2013.
2 o'clock.My exam was going to start.But suddenly my sis in law dtg.She picked me up.I was nervous that time.What was happening? She said "bapa sesak nafas..Oxygen dia rendah" On the way pegi hospital i just cant stop from praying. Ya Allah.Selamatkan bapaku Ya Allah. Sampai hospital,dia teda dlm bilik dia,then my sis in law called my bro,dia ada di ward.I saw him sesak nafas,tasbih di tgn,dia menderita waktu tu..Ya Allah..I kissed his hand and he said even sesak nafas "fara belajar baik-baik,kalau bapa tiada nanti....." my mom suru dia berhenti cakap sbb dia nda bole ckp bykk,and i was crying that time..That disease sudah merebak pergi paru-paru.Oxygen dia rendah.Wayar-wayar semua berselirat di badan dia.Igt lagi bila lap badan dia waktu tu,dia cakap.suru abg lap,kau belum kna chicken pox,jangkit krg..Allah Allah.. :'( then doctor cakap dia kna pindah ward supaya lebih senang..Oxygen dia kna cabut waktu tu and ward tu di sebelah sja..Then suddenly dia tiba-tiba bangun and muka sudah biru..That time mata dia ke atas and me,my bro and my mum cakap "mengucap paa mengucap.." and that time doctor suru kami keluar and my bro and me bca yaasin that time. I cried.So hard.Lpas asar..Doctor cakap his heartbeat berhenti.And that time,i lost control,i cried.I cried.I cried. I saw him.Tiada lagi nafas.Tiada lagi senyuman,tiada lagi apa-apa.I kissed his forehead.Allah... He's gone.Forever.My mum,bro,my sis in law tried bagi tenang..But i just cant. I want my dad :'(
But yeah,life must go on,no one could replace you dad,15 tahun.You take care of me so much.My dad is my everything.Dia selalu backup whenever kna marah dgn mama.Dia selalu bagi what i totally want.Dia selalu cerita-cerita pasal dia balik dari umrah,pasal ceramah,pasal apa-apa.Nasihat-nasihat dia selalu bagi.But i regret i dont spend my time more with you dad.Thank you for everything.I always remember you.I know you always watching me. I know. Ini semua macam mimpi. Mimpi yang realiti.I lost you. I promise I'll be strong no matter what.Thank you dad.. Pa,terima kasih atas semua ini.Terima kasih sbb didik dengan penuh kasih sayang,bagi didikan agama yang ckup dan semua ni.I love you,forever. Thanks pa.. :')
I miss you.. :') Alfatihah.
